Journey of a Caterpillar

The following is a work of fiction. Any resemblance to persons living or dead is purely coincidental.

The overprotected caterpillar saw harsh reality at a tender age.

So he built a cocoon and never went out.

The outside world seemed wonderful but it filled him with rage.

All he could do was scream and shout.

The thought of never making it on his own filled him with fear

He hated drugs, alcohol and beer.

Alas! something unthinkable took place

He had lovely wings and was free to fly

The interesting creatures took him in their embrace and soon he was no longer shy.

It all seemed fine but something felt wrong inside

The caterpillar was a butterfly now and decided to enjoy the ride

His intelligence and speed seemed not to matter

It was only his beautiful wings they were after. His dreams were shattered.

He decided to be brave and built them a tiny grave

Oh they shall be buried alive one fine day

Try to escape but won't find a way.

The butterfly found peace in a comforting thought

He was a fighter and he fought.

Egos

Recently heard about this taxi driver, who came from an affluent business family. He spent 20 years without talking to his family over a silly argument, struggled doing odd jobs for two decades because his ego was simply larger than life. Finally when good sense prevailed, he decided to locate his long lost family only to find out that the final memory he shared with his father was the fight. His mother still couldn’t believe that her son had returned. His brothers were more than happy to welcome him back into the family and the family business. Was the struggle, the countless years driving cabs, the days he spent living in a car easier than simply apologizing? I know sorry is the hardest word to say..but would the family even care about the sorry? Wouldn’t it be more than enough that the son has come back! Obviously wiser, obviously resenting, obviously trying to look beyond his ego?  Yes, I know of certain people who would act like you don’t exist rather than accepting your apology, simply because they couldn’t care less! Simply because it is the easier way out. They make me angry, also they make me feel bad for them in a weird way. A person who cannot forgive, or even get over something that someone did at a young, restless age, certainly has issues.

How can sophisticated adults get so wrapped up in themselves that they refuse to see anything other than their ego.  People go for years without caring about family members, friends, over insignificant things. Over misunderstandings. In some cases, over similar personalities. What happens when two people with humungous egos clash? STORM..THUNDER!! it’s also sad that the 2 people fail to spot the similarity in their personalities..the reason for their clash. They see the wrong in the other, but refuse to see the wrong in themselves.

I know people can’t always relate with me when I say I feel sorry for Vivek Oberoi, yes he made a mistake. He acted first, thought about it later. What people fail to realize is that he was 24 years old! He was young and stupid. Soon after he realized his fault, he publicly apologized to Salman Khan several times. He made a mistake but did he really deserve to pay the price of his career over it? A fan of Salman Khan, but I am also mature enough, and human enough to see Vivek Oberoi’s perspective. If a girl who is fondly refered to as “Dumby”, “donkey”, “blondey” can see that? Why can’t the so called fair intellectuals, disciplined adults see that. Why are things that can be so simple, get so complicated? How can something that should easily have been solved by a “sorry” get to a point where it stops making sense? Where it becomes frustratingly ridiculous? A point where nobody even remembers what the problem was? A point where it becomes difficult for both parties to go back.

Things change

Yes people are different. People also change. 

Maybe i respect those i hated years ago. I know that it is strange.

Maybe what was right for me a decade ago is not acceptable anymore.

Maybe what was acceptable to me back then is something i now abhor.

Maybe i am who i am because of the way i was then. 

Maybe i am talking no sense right now, lets not think about the how, what, when?

If seeing is believing then why do we believe in air?

Why do we believe in God?

Why does the thought of ghosts give us a scare?

Why do we believe in something we were taught?

Taught long back, we probably even forgot.

What you say does not automatically turn into reality by screaming

Maybe i do not like reality, why stop me from dreaming?

Human psychology

Human psychology is a very interesting phenomenon.

I feel like i would have made an awesome psychologist

Sometimes i regret changing my mind after majoring in psychology and not pursuing the field further.

However, it still retains its position in my heart as a highly exciting subject

Why do two people behave differently in similar situations?

what governs their thoughts and actions?

The answer is simple

People are different, some are assertive, some are aggressive, some are patient, others restless

Some are trusting, others always paranoid.

What do we do when we face people like that. We judge. 

She doesn't trust me, why should i trust her?

Maybe its not just you. Maybe she doesn't trust anybody. Easiest thing to do..NOTHING...hardest thing to do...Get to know her so you can win her trust.

He is too short tempered. I would rather not talk with him.

Do we ever stop and think. Why is he short tempered. Maybe there was something in his past life that made him that way. Maybe he has to put up with a lot of shit and just loses it at random times as a result. Maybe he just does not like you. In that case i would suggest you to keep away. 

It is easy to judge, some people are just plain annoying. Everyone can be annoying at times. It is not expected from anyone to be perfect. It is not expected from anyone to like everything about anyone. If you like everything about someone, that person is not being honest. Something is just not right. I have experienced it. Some people show their true colors after ages. Which is fine, actually it is commendable. I wish i had that talent, but sadly those who hate me hate me in an instant. 

I am quick to judge, and i really feel the need to fight that urge. More often than not, the fault lies within you, if you realize that it becomes a little less painful not to judge. If you do not like something about a person, think of 3 things that you appreciate about them. It is not as difficult as it seems. Most of us are not as bad as we would like to believe.You will continue hating their negative traits, but thinking about the positive ones will keep you together. It is worth it. 

Old story...new climax.

This poem is not about any body per say, it is about all of us who get that way sometimes

Hopefully we will all get over ourselves and bring back those fun times. 

People get upset and people get tired, 

People get stressed and they also get fired

Everybody wants to believe they are the only ones alive

They think if we were in their place, we wouldn't survive

No matter how much we do or achieve in life, it isn't enough

Because we have it smooth and they have it rough

If you do not complain your life is easy

If you find time for friends, you are probably not busy

They talk and talk and you listen, that is what friends do

Who wants to listen to you? if you are lucky...very few

Every thing in their life is important and HUMONGOUS

By the time they decide to hear you out, your problems catch fungus

They waste hours whining about every single thing

But cant seem to find two minutes to read what you write or hear you sing

However, all that matters at the end of the day

is that they always stand by you... come what may. 

:)

good deeds

So went out today, the college group together after 2 years! was super excited...and then, mamma gave me a list of groceries to do, 4 items to be precise...and i figured "ok will grab em up, will take 5 minutes right"... right? WRONG! as usual...wrong! 

While i stood alone in line to pay for those 4 items of groceries, my friends waited for me, eating dessert and clicking pictures and doing madness.10 minutes..(internal dialogue) "should i just leave the cart here and go join em? yeah lets do that...but..i waited so long might as well wait another 10 minutes"...15 minutes...20 minutes...30 minutes...45 minutes...2 more minutes? hmm...

By the time i got out...all the fun was over...with one friend having left after waiting and waiting..and two of em in the car ready to leave after waiting and waiting some more. 

So i missed out on a lot of fun, pictures, DESSERT!!! not to mention standing in that unorganized line at the super crowded, noisy grocery store just so i could be the good daughter, to hear this from my mum "why did you wait so long in line, it wasn't that important..."

Moral of the story, Selfless good deeds aren't meant for everyone.

Crazy thoughts

The world moves forward while i am left behind

where did i go wrong, maybe i should have crossed that line

The line i made for myself, thinking it's the right thing to do

Could it be that right when it usually made me feel blue

It's not so bad, but feels like i am missing something

What could it be, i do not know, i am still thinking.

The empty feeling, that i cant decipher

But i am waiting to see what life has to offer.

Overrated ? maybe it is, how would i know

But at least you wont feel like it was something you missed. 

They say it is good, will i ever experience what they call true bliss.

First blog

An ordinary girl

in this ordinary world

I find happiness in the smallest of smiles

and tear up when somebody cries

People think i am confident, even when i am not

They think my life is perfect, not knowing how much i have fought.

May pretend it doesnt matter when it sure as hell does

would rather act like that, than admit i like the fuss

I get upset at the drop of a hat

But i am trying to get past that

Getting mad at someone for something they said

i plan out my next move when i go to bed

"next time i will say this, that and make them cry"

but when we meet again, all i can do is smile and say "hi"

Always try to do whats right

Being able to honestly say that makes me feel light

but i'm only human, sometimes i fail

rather live like a lion than like a timid little snail.

it's better to do what you believe in, even if it means you get into a fight

You can't please everyone, its smarter to please yourself

There will always be those that wish you go to hell.

Nomatter how hard you try, or how much you smile

Few will always try to trash you and criticize your style!

You might have all the money, and power but still feel helpless at times

Never forget the most powerful thing you can do is close your eyes and pray.

You are not a bad person as long as you keep away from crimes

hmm my first blog and i already feel like i'm getting carried away

but hey that's just me...feel what you may.